Hello from Me, May Leigh

The Couple Next Door, I am extremely excited to read this book, it is currently waiting at the library for me to pick up tomorrow and I hope to be done with a stranger in my house by then The Widow Fiona Barton The Child Fiona Barton Blood Sisters two posts back I gave a list of my to be read books, these 4 were on it and did not disappoint, the others I gave a few pages and couldn't get into it or just ended up not enjoying the summary and didn't try it out. As you can see from my previous post, a stranger in the house was a 5 star read for me, so I went on to the Couple Next Door and once again I loved it, the Unwanted Guest by far my favorite of this authors 3 books, and I really really liked all 3 but unwanted guest just reeled me in and dealt the punches. Now, I will say, the ending was a bit of a let down just didn't have the punches the rest of the book had by still a great read. I went on to read The Haunting of Hill House after starting the netflix s

Good Morning, I was up until 230am and finished A Stranger in the House, SHIT, this book!!! A little over halfway through I thought I had it figured it out, and then I didn't. I absolutely love books that allow you to think you've figured it out and then not only show you that you're wrong but then surprise the shit out of you over and over again until the book ends. I love that an author is able to do that, The Woman in Cabin 10 is another book I've read recently that was the same way, The Girl on the Train is another, these are the books I apparently love!! I'll head to pick up the Couple Next Door shortly on my way to an escape room (ahhh yah), cannot wait to start it on another front, I HAD no idea that Scarlet Gospel was a book based off of Pinhead/Hellraiser #completeandtotalshock 

I am 14 books into my 30 book challenge for the year. Granted I did not begin until mid-July, so I figured that 30 was reasonable. I started off reading a 300 page book within 24 hours, it has spaced out a little more now, more like 48-72 hours, a week for bigger books. I did get stuck on IT and the Pet Sematary, seeing those movies beforehand slowed my reading and interest down a bit.  In the process I have come across some really great, exceptional books, that I have thoroughly enjoyed reading. In the past I have always leaned more toward Nicholas Sparks books, The Night Circus (if you have not read this book do so IMMEDIATELY!! It is truly an exceptional book that has my heart since I read it), but I have since found my love with thriller books. Started off with The Girl on the Train, Kind worth Killing, I'll list below the books I have read with the star review I gave it, and then the ones I have currently reading and in line to be read on my bookshelf The Shining Stephen

I've spent the past well, let's see, 47 days trying out new recipes, making changes, getting kind of a routine down for meals and snacks. Some have turned out great, but then like the one last night I was really looking forward to, well it did not. I recently received a great list of recipes to try out from the Peta mentor program, the ones I've tried so far have been amazing. So with all of that being said I'm going to spend some time posting some of my favorite recipes for meals and snacks on here over the next few days and week. It is actually quite funny, here in Louisiana, if you mention the word vegan, people become fearful for your life. Kids believe you are going to die from not eating meat, like how did that even happen?! There are NO local meet-up groups on being vegan, animal rights, etc...like NONE I mean I Figured as much on some of this, since hunting is a hobby and favorite past time, and they literally brought in black bears so when they become a t

<a href="https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/16130549-doctor-sleep" style="float: left; padding-right: 20px"><img border="0" alt="Doctor Sleep (The Shining, #2)" src="https://images.gr-assets.com/books/1510335480m/16130549.jpg" /></a><a href="https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/16130549-doctor-sleep">Doctor Sleep</a> by <a href="https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/3389.Stephen_King">Stephen King</a><br/> My rating: <a href="https://www.goodreads.com/review/show/2470458779">5 of 5 stars</a><br /><br /> for the first time in my 35 years read the shining just a short 3 weeks ago, soon after watched the movie (which was nothing compared to the book, I actually hated every aspect of it), now I've read some of stephen king's novels, under the dome, salem's lot, but the Shining was brilliant and masterfully written. I read a fe

For most of my adult life I have desired to write a book, to put everything I have onto paper, to tell a story, and hope that it could give hope to just one person. For most of my adult life I have struggled to put the words together onto paper, in a way that kept me writing full force to the end. It is very hard to tell a story about a life you are still living, my lines are often blurred with faded memories and drug induced fuzziness that the timeline never quite matches up. I've recently thought that I could literally do a timeline, the things I know for sure happened at certain age and time, and fill in the blanks to figure out the others. For almost  all of my adult life I have hated my father and often my mother. This is the story I wish to tell, how I arrived there, how I lived through it, and left it behind the best I could. How it turned me into who I am, a demented but thriving 30 something mother, who put so much into the carelessness of her mask to those looking at

For me, a diet wasn't enough to keep me on target, it wasn't enough for me to change to make the changes necessary to stay on track. For me, I needed a lifestyle change, I needed something I believed in, it had to be more than just losing weight I needed something to rid my life of toxins. This had been something I had been working towards for a year, slow intracit moves, directed towards results, and end goal, a destination. For me, honestly, it all started with my hair. My first step was going no poo or curly girl, realizing what those ingredients masked in the form of beautiful scents and shine were chemicals that hid their harm. To read and realize what I had been doing to my hair since birth almost was gut wrenching. That is when u began a search for peace, seeking harmony with my soul and mind. Next was yoga, this was a form of me being able to let go of so much negative energy and toxins that had weighed my soul down for far too long and I desperately needed them gone.

The past couple of weeks have been chaotic to say the least. I have been absent because I had to be 100% present in reality. My youngest is finally making progress on a sensory diagnosis, 2 a sensory therapy sessions and I play therapy session a week. we are making progress, finally! I finally had a doctor sit and listen to me, my concerns, for an hour, And did not stall in getting me on the path to answers. I am so very thankful for her. I am trying to learn all I can on Sensory Processing Disorder but man there is alot of information to sort through and understand. Right now they are leaning towards soley Sensory processing but at the beginning there were concerns of Aspbergers as Well. I'm still not Convinced she isn't but she does not fit all in the box. She Maintains eye contact which is a big part of them deciding she does not have aspbergers. I'm going to spend some time today writing about how I first noticed, what we go through on a bad day, and what I have managed

I have recently taken the plunge and changed to a menstrual cup, and honey if I can do it anyone can, and I freaking LOVE IT!! The first brand I chose to try out is the divacup Though first to understand, you need a little medical history. When I got pregnant with my first child I went to see the baby doctor. Upon examination she says 'oh, hmmmm' you know when someone is  down there  and says something like that it never just sits well, especially when a baby is growing inside of it.  I was sent to have an ultrasound immediately to confirm before I was told anything, and boy did they confirm I was born with some extras, extra female reproductive organs that is. I have a didelphys uterus,  Didelphys Uterus - every fetus actually has 2 separate organs at the beginning, at around 9 weeks they go through a forming of the unions type deal where these two separate sides form into one. The fetus can have a partial or complete failure of this process. In most cases in which this

My life long dream has been to write a book about my childhood and growing up. I am just having trouble figuring, where do you start? Do you start at the very beginning and go from there or do you start now and reflect back as things are relevant, thus is where I'm lost. I would think birth to present would Be predictable and boring, but if it's not told that way will it still tell the story you wish to tell? I know that there is at least 1 person out there who can hear my story and find the strength to change their life, and That's all I want. If I spend a fortune to print a book and only 1 is sold but that 1 finds peace in my words then it's worth it right. Or even if those I read about realize my story told from my point of vhiew and not their own then that's enough for me. I really think the hardest part of writing it will be that I have to open the vault, the vault of things over my life I have completely stowed away to lessen the pain and memory of it, see t

I know that my posts probably aren't normal blog posts, I mean most have an agenda, right? Are they all set out to sell you something like everything on instagram now?? Anyway, most blogs I've read have an intended topics, something specific they are talking about in each post. I intend to discuss in my posts whatever is on my mind at that very moment, some days, like my first few posts, will be all about one topic because it just so happened to stick around that long. Some days are random, with thoughts of growing up, or my recent fight with anxiety. Honestly I just need a place to vent, a place to lay my thoughts all out on there, get it off my chest. Sometimes that is all I need to do to come to a decision, to get my thoughts in line. That is what my blog posts are. Like my online journal. Hulu picked up One Tree Hill, I've had a void since it left Netflix and I wasn't able to finish it, last episode of season 7 that's where I left it. This show really is a gre

I'm struggling today, with the concept of...everything. A lot over my lifetime I have felt empty and I'm trying to find what is suppose to fill that void. I've tried food, running and boxing, kids, family, addictions, extreme spending habits in hobbies and other things. I want to be a good person because that's what I am, I don't feel a person should have to be negotiated with and bought with a reward/prize for them to live by the rules of being a good person. Now hear me out. Those rules are just common sense. Don't murder, well no shit. Don't take property that doesn't belong to you, also common sense that's why it's in every single religion no matter the variation, it's just obvious. I was reading that beliefs and religion are 90% of the time tradition, being trained, and environment, how you were raised. Some were forced to go to church from a young age and still continue to go as we get older, I do not fall into that category. I

The past few days have been crazy hectic with work and my inability to not concentrate on one thing when I have a million to do. I've had a ton of meetings but that is all over now and it's on to my weekend with the majority of the world. Last night I read a great deal about Buddhism, where it came from, what it means, what exactly it entails, very interesting to say the least. I come from a family of Southern Baptists as my dad was a Pastor, one aunt in all her devoteness is a Church of Christ to the core, and the other aunt when she attends is an Assembly of God, even with all these 3 completely different religions they are all very very different from Buddhism and to even hear that I am researching it was like a sword to the heart. It was almost as if they were about to lose me, like my life was ending, 'you know they don't believe in God or afterlife' welllll technically they believe in a different kind of afterlife...being reborn based on your previous life&#

Well, I barely got into my list from yesterday😥, cleaned the kitchen, did a few dishes (mainly the MOTH did those though if I'm honest), did a yoga video, and my Amazon cart is full of yoga shit I probably. No I know I don't even need right now. Work meetings took over my day, completely, which is ok bc I prefer to be busy and I love my job, but they were spur of the moment thrown on my calendar meetings and not much good news from the day. All in all I'm moving on from yesterday onto today with my list still intact. "Worrying does not take away tomorrow's troubles, it takes away today's peace"

I started my day with a long list of things I want to achieve, which stresses me out from the get-go. Dishes/pick up house Work Meetings Research Buddhism Watch Yoga videos to understand proper posture of poses Research Yoga Mats Start looking into aerial yoga (my main yoga goal, I want...no I need to do this!!) Honestly, I've probably spent more time looking up yoga mats and swings on amazon than I have actually spent watching videos on how to do this I mean seriously, I have fallen into the black hole of google, amazon, and youtube. With a billion tabs open so I don't forget one of the things I've found or wanted to read up on...this is getting ridiculous. Obviously these are first world problems I pushed everything aside and made myself stop putting it off, I just finished up with my very first yoga lesson. Granted I'm doing this at home, and I don't have a yoga mat at the moment but I did use my daughters gym mat which is very thick and hard and well

Though giving it serious thought over many years I have never given in to starting a blog, just making time, dedication, finding time, did I say that already?? Recently I have started focusing on how I want my life to be, now, going forward, in the future, and I have recently realized there are things I need to change, add, remove from my life. Important things, make a difference things, or things that just no longer matter at all. I am 35 years old, I am a single mother of a 15 and 14 year old girl and boy, I have a step-daughter who is 9, and a 3 year old daughter who I share with the man I plan to spend the rest of my years with, ever how many that is. We have recently bought a house together, after living on our own in our own homes for 6+ years prior, it was a difficult transition, but we made it. After I had my youngest, I went head first into post-partum depression and severe anxiety, it altered my life completely, both physically, mentally, emotionally, all of the above. I ha