Hello from Me, May Leigh

For me, a diet wasn't enough to keep me on target, it wasn't enough for me to change to make the changes necessary to stay on track. For me, I needed a lifestyle change, I needed something I believed in, it had to be more than just losing weight I needed something to rid my life of toxins. This had been something I had been working towards for a year, slow intracit moves, directed towards results, and end goal, a destination. For me, honestly, it all started with my hair. My first step was going no poo or curly girl, realizing what those ingredients masked in the form of beautiful scents and shine were chemicals that hid their harm. To read and realize what I had been doing to my hair since birth almost was gut wrenching. That is when u began a search for peace, seeking harmony with my soul and mind. Next was yoga, this was a form of me being able to let go of so much negative energy and toxins that had weighed my soul down for far too long and I desperately needed them gone....

The past couple of weeks have been chaotic to say the least. I have been absent because I had to be 100% present in reality. My youngest is finally making progress on a sensory diagnosis, 2 a sensory therapy sessions and I play therapy session a week. we are making progress, finally! I finally had a doctor sit and listen to me, my concerns, for an hour, And did not stall in getting me on the path to answers. I am so very thankful for her. I am trying to learn all I can on Sensory Processing Disorder but man there is alot of information to sort through and understand. Right now they are leaning towards soley Sensory processing but at the beginning there were concerns of Aspbergers as Well. I'm still not Convinced she isn't but she does not fit all in the box. She Maintains eye contact which is a big part of them deciding she does not have aspbergers. I'm going to spend some time today writing about how I first noticed, what we go through on a bad day, and what I have managed...

I have recently taken the plunge and changed to a menstrual cup, and honey if I can do it anyone can, and I freaking LOVE IT!! The first brand I chose to try out is the divacup Though first to understand, you need a little medical history. When I got pregnant with my first child I went to see the baby doctor. Upon examination she says 'oh, hmmmm' you know when someone is  down there  and says something like that it never just sits well, especially when a baby is growing inside of it.  I was sent to have an ultrasound immediately to confirm before I was told anything, and boy did they confirm I was born with some extras, extra female reproductive organs that is. I have a didelphys uterus,  Didelphys Uterus - every fetus actually has 2 separate organs at the beginning, at around 9 weeks they go through a forming of the unions type deal where these two separate sides form into one. The fetus can have a partial or complete failure of this process. In most cases in...

My life long dream has been to write a book about my childhood and growing up. I am just having trouble figuring, where do you start? Do you start at the very beginning and go from there or do you start now and reflect back as things are relevant, thus is where I'm lost. I would think birth to present would Be predictable and boring, but if it's not told that way will it still tell the story you wish to tell? I know that there is at least 1 person out there who can hear my story and find the strength to change their life, and That's all I want. If I spend a fortune to print a book and only 1 is sold but that 1 finds peace in my words then it's worth it right. Or even if those I read about realize my story told from my point of vhiew and not their own then that's enough for me. I really think the hardest part of writing it will be that I have to open the vault, the vault of things over my life I have completely stowed away to lessen the pain and memory of it, see t...

I know that my posts probably aren't normal blog posts, I mean most have an agenda, right? Are they all set out to sell you something like everything on instagram now?? Anyway, most blogs I've read have an intended topics, something specific they are talking about in each post. I intend to discuss in my posts whatever is on my mind at that very moment, some days, like my first few posts, will be all about one topic because it just so happened to stick around that long. Some days are random, with thoughts of growing up, or my recent fight with anxiety. Honestly I just need a place to vent, a place to lay my thoughts all out on there, get it off my chest. Sometimes that is all I need to do to come to a decision, to get my thoughts in line. That is what my blog posts are. Like my online journal. Hulu picked up One Tree Hill, I've had a void since it left Netflix and I wasn't able to finish it, last episode of season 7 that's where I left it. This show really is a gre...

I'm struggling today, with the concept of...everything. A lot over my lifetime I have felt empty and I'm trying to find what is suppose to fill that void. I've tried food, running and boxing, kids, family, addictions, extreme spending habits in hobbies and other things. I want to be a good person because that's what I am, I don't feel a person should have to be negotiated with and bought with a reward/prize for them to live by the rules of being a good person. Now hear me out. Those rules are just common sense. Don't murder, well no shit. Don't take property that doesn't belong to you, also common sense that's why it's in every single religion no matter the variation, it's just obvious. I was reading that beliefs and religion are 90% of the time tradition, being trained, and environment, how you were raised. Some were forced to go to church from a young age and still continue to go as we get older, I do not fall into that category. I ...

The past few days have been crazy hectic with work and my inability to not concentrate on one thing when I have a million to do. I've had a ton of meetings but that is all over now and it's on to my weekend with the majority of the world. Last night I read a great deal about Buddhism, where it came from, what it means, what exactly it entails, very interesting to say the least. I come from a family of Southern Baptists as my dad was a Pastor, one aunt in all her devoteness is a Church of Christ to the core, and the other aunt when she attends is an Assembly of God, even with all these 3 completely different religions they are all very very different from Buddhism and to even hear that I am researching it was like a sword to the heart. It was almost as if they were about to lose me, like my life was ending, 'you know they don't believe in God or afterlife' welllll technically they believe in a different kind of afterlife...being reborn based on your previous life...